some days

Some days, I stand in my kitchen balling my eyes out because the garbage can I just cleaned and sanitized to white perfection has tomato sauce all over the lid.

Some days, my To Do list is so long I want to jab my pen in my head and scramble my brain to mush.

Some days, I lie in bed at night marking, by coughs and groans, the slow death of two men.

Some days, I wonder if I no longer do anything will anyone love me.

Some days, I wonder if I can ever do enough to be loved.

Some days, I forget how to breath.

Some days, the air moves like a dance, twinkling lights draw me into vast galaxies, cinnamon, cloves, rosemary and lemons awaken my dna, a mournful, lyrical chord tightens my chest and my mouth yearns for a kiss.

Some days, I can’t even.

Some days, it’s all too much.

10 Things You Might Not Know

I stole this from Quilly, who stole it from Cherie, who stole it from…and so on and so on.


The idea is to list 10 things – right off the top of your head – that we would only know about you if we knew you really well. 10 random things ranging anywhere on your personal map that make you a tad distinctive? Or just plain weird? Think quickly. Don’t go for deep. Go for quirky. Don’t try to put them in any kind of order and don’t make them long. Just start typing.

1. I avoid direct sunlight. I wear sunglasses even on cloudy days.


2. I have about 20 umbrellas but never use them.


3. I don’t wear t-shirts or baseball caps, ever.


4. I wear my wedding ring on my right hand.


5. I will eat almost any vegetable raw, but cooked celery and cabbage are just yucky.


6. I like salt, straight up. Always have since I was 2 years old.


7. My cousin shot me with an arrow.


8. I like to play in the mud. 


9. I stand under the light of the full moon each month at midnight, naked, even in Winter, in my backyard. (Just don't look. You might go blind.)


10. I like crab legs and shrimp but I don’t like lobster.